-there is nothing else outside of me and alcohol, but once we leave each other, all hell breaks loose and I'm in an endless cycle of appreciation and pain
I was fortunate enough to take myself away from Pittsburgh and to Vegas for a couple days. I thought removing myself would leave the memories behind too. I could replace them with a visions of a new future and new people.
I was just grasping onto distractions, things that I thought I could invest faith into.
-money
-boys
-alcohol
Wrong distractions. Need to look up, around, find something conducive. Remember my goals. Remember to love myself first.
Be independent.
And only then will I find new love.
